22 October 2k2
"Lord I don't know where all this is going . . .
. . . or how it all works out . . .
Lead me to peace that is past understanding . . .
. . . a peace beyond all doubt"
- Newsboys Lord I Don't Know on Thrive
Twenty days ago, someone started shooting in the DC metro area . . .
yeah, my DC metro area . . .
seven shootings in two days . . .
and then, spaced out over the following weeks and even as i type this . . .
random bloodshed for reasons unknown . . .
before my eyes, i've seen a callous work-driven society . . .
transform into a cautious, worried culture . . .
as this violence plagues our streets . . .
the media plays on our emotions . . .
counting on fear to fuel their ratings . . .
[the atmosphere -- ] it's hard to describe . . .
it's not like people are consumed with the fear . . .
that every time they step out into the open . . .
they are susceptible to being shot and killed . . .
but, they would be lying if they said it didn't cross their minds . . .
i mean, of all things to take for granted . . .
a safe journey from your car to the store . . .
from the store to your car . . .
the ability to pump your gas safely . . .
we have become a community looking over their shoulder . . .
it's the hot topic of conversation . . .
we want to know . . .
who? why? am i safe? . . .
initially, i wanted to solve this puzzle . . .
that's how i control things . . .
i figure them out . . .
i find the solution . . .
and i've watched enough Murder, She Wrote and Matlock to know . . .
that the police need all the help they can get . . .
NOTE: i am being facetious . . .
i hold the law enforcement agents in the highest regard . . .
anyway, with the intention of solving this mystery . . .
i approached the reports with an attitude of logic . . .
and quickly realized that it's just not logical to start killing others . . .
and also, i realized that it is pretty dumb of me to think i could solve a case . . .
that i have no access to . . .
i really have no business meddling in this realm of work . . .
for me to engage in such activity cheapens to work of those that have spent their lives . . .
learning how to do it correctly . . .
so, i have backed off of my "investigation" . . .
and instead i deal with what i have some control over . . .
and that is the day to day thoughts and concerns of those around me . . .
not that i'm a great counselor or anything . . .
but if i show myself stable and secure in God's comforts . . .
others will want that comfort too . . .
that's how it's supposed to work right? . . .
well, we shall see . . .
so, if you haven't noticed, i've been taking a sabbatical of sorts . . .
not that i've done anything to deserve it or anything . . .
but it's been forced upon me with yet another hasty emergency at work . . .
with all the adjustments of a demanding (and adorable) little blessing . . .
that commands my time and attention while home . . .
with a lot of little things that creep up on you like a turtleneck sweater . . .
but, fear not . . .
i am committed to writing . . .
it's a part of my growing process . . .
and my thoughts have led me to many interesting topics . . .
and ideas . . .
and i plan to engage on these to the best of my abilities . . .
as soon as i can . . .
in the words of Switchfoot . . .
i am "learning to breathe" . . .
not the least of things, will be an overhaul over at TRu-dAT.music . . .
including a new way of reviewing cds that i think is pretty neat and interesting . . .
that may change once i start actually applying it to actual reviews but we shall see . . .
o well . . .
in good time . . .