20 March 2k2
there are no words to make this time easier to deal with . . .
nothing i can say can make it hurt any less . . .
-The Lord your God is a strong tower, the righteous run to Him and are safe . . .
i am, i believe in no less a state of shock then when i first heard . . .
this morning, my uncle passed away . . .
it was sudden, unexpected, and a shock to us all . . .
when i got the phone call at work, i braced myself for bad news . . .
i thought for sure that my grandfather had died . . .
-in your weakness, I AM strong . . .
see, my grandfather has been in and out of the hosptial for quite some time now . . .
i had to some extent prepared myself for his departure . . .
i hope that doesn't come across as calloused, it's not that i was okay with it . . .
it saddens me that i wouldn't be able to see him again in earthly form . . .
but i rejoice that he is feeling no pain . . .
i take comfort in knowing that he is in heaven right now . . .
-But you, O Lord , be not far off; O my Strength, come quickly to help me.
yes, my grandfather also passed away today, approximately 10 hours later . . .
it is a tremendous blow to our family to lose two members the same day . . .
i cannot even fathom the depth of this wound to closer family members . . .
-but those you hope in the Lord, He will renew their strength, they will soar on wings as eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
well, all i can do is pray, and take care of the life i have to live for the rest of the days i have to live it . . .
i thank God for the time i had with both my uncle and my grandfather . . .
for the memories i have . . .
and mostly that they are in His presence, whole and without pain, seeing the most glorious view . . .
04 March 2k2
grrrr . . . .
i can't believe the frustration i feel right now . . . .
why can't i write? why can't i JUST FOCUS!!!!!!!!
. . .
so i've been doing some of the cooking lately to help out around the house . . .
and of course it's been "guy" cooking - meaning mac and cheese, pasta, stuff i can just heat up . . .
and hey, a simple revolation came to me as they often do . . .
and it's relevant to something i've been mulling over as it often is . . .
and i'm gonna write it down so i don't forget it as i often do . . .
as i grew up and learned how to boil water i never used a lid on the pot . . .
my wife, however, prefers that i use a lid to prevent the wasting of heat . . .
the downside of using a lid though is that it increases the chances of boiling over . . .
(i've found anyway) . . .
so as i had my back turned to the stovetop with water boiling . . .
and i was unloading the dishwasher . . .
and i heard the all-too-familiar hissing of impending boiling over of the pot . . .
bad news . . .
but, due to the warning hiss, i was able to catch the disaster before it happened . . .
i had plenty of time . . .
so, threat contained, i returned my attention to the dishwasher . . .
sure enough the hissing returned, this time with less warning .. .
i suppose that technically it is because the side of the pot had lost its cold where the water-level had previously crept to . . .
and that the second time it had to creep higher to find the cool which creates the hiss . . .
which gives less warning . . .
and inevitably it will boil over unless we turn the temperature down, (in my case a gas flame) . . .
ok, so here's the illustration . . .
in life, when we live under an ever-popular elastic clause built into our moral beliefs . . .
we need to realize that the further we stretch our resistance . . .
that is, the further we cross the set guidelines . . .
the less warning we will get, and the less amount of time we have to respond to and prevent our impending boiling-over . . .
so we should set clear boundaries (they are generally set for us in scripture) . . .
and we need to stick to them . . .
and, oh yeah, flee the flames of temptation . . .
for which among you can fill your lap with burning coals and not expect to be burned?